Scripting the END

Some things are never needed to be said but still its good to say them anyways... So here's some of that stuff.

Being “us” has been so obvious for the past four and a half years, that some part of the heart doesn’t want to move on… even if it is moving on to IIM A. I entered NITH without knowing what to expect, yes there was the projection of college as presented by movies. What I have got is way better than a scripted story, way above any Jai Veeru legend. Perfection is something that each one of us is far-far distant from, but the desire to stay bonded in our imperfect forms doesn’t come from any need or from any motive, it comes from the unsaid connection, from the feeling of belongingness that we share. And now, for all practical reasons, when I think that life won’t be same ever again, I already sense that void inside me…

As a matter of fact there is some part of you all that shall always prevail inside me forever. I should actually thank each one of you individually here for everything that I have soaked from you. To quote, having a clear vision about what’s happening in my life and how I would want things to happen is something that I am still in the process of absorbing from Deepak. To be able to live the present to the fullest is something that Saransh has mastered and that is something that if I can do, I know I will be someone more fun to be around. Nishant, is more like myself minus the temper… well although that is something I should really-really change, but as a matter of fact I haven’t even started trying…. May be when I find myself stranded alone in the future, I might tone things down…. Well some things are supposed to be learned the hard way, so be it. I think I am a hard worker, but let’s face it, I have received enough motivation time to time in the form of concrete results to keep me motivated… but to be able to keep pushing even when tides refuse to turn your way, Shobit, when my time comes, all I’ll do is think of you J. Shubhayu, everybody needs a joey in life, someone who can be genuinely cute and refreshing even at the worst times. I’ll always miss just tugging on to your voluptuous self for no reason. Then there have been a few new addition, transforming Panchayat to Dil Dosti etc. Nitesh, although not a new addition to my life, but still at least to the gang … well one thing I know for sure is that if ever I would need something from you… I won’t have to ask for it. I hope and wish I can be the same for all of you, always. Aneesha, should be credited with bringing the fizz in our group. We all care a lot for each other but at times can be a bit miser in showing that… well that’s not for her. May be you are the much required topping on our otherwise well baked group. And a few words for my Semi too … not knowing what to do, but still being prepared to do anything for the friend … Nitin, may be some day I will be able reciprocate that.

Lots of take aways, and a promise to embed these traits of yours in myself… Hopefully a few years down the line when we meet, you will find all of the above in me.

Thought of the end dooming upon me has left trails of tears in my eyes in the past few days. The moment gives me an opportunity to reflect upon “being us”. The best part being that we never needed to be anything but us amongst ourselves. The ease with which we all have always shrugged off any grudges, itself highlights the weight and value of the emotions that bind us. There is a thin line between being friends and being family, and I would say we have moved across that line. So definitely distance won’t be able to spoil what we share amongst us.

For now this blog is just to say the unsaid....

I don’t know how I’ll be able to manage life without you guys. I don’t know if I’ll be able to forge a similar relationship with anyone ever again. I simply don't know what to expect from my personal life upfront, coz everything and anything i get will always be relatively less than what i have today. I just dream of a Bollywood like end for our story and hope all our roads converge again at some point. May all of you reach the pinnacle of happiness in your lives.

Lots of love ... sb